alright.

I was hoping that I'd never have to blog another sad thought again, but there is just too much going on in my life. I need to vent in any way possible right now. Well my house is bought, and I am moving to Ohio for my second half of junior year and my whole senior year. I just told my best friend, and we cried together hysterically. She is what I will miss the most out of everything, not the house I've been living in for 17 years, not my grandparents, not my other friends, her. It is killing me to even think about what mental state I will be in when she isn't constantly present in my life anymore. I'm not gonna have someone to be one step behind me every time I'm dieing at practice, or to get me ready for parties. Not gonna have her to have our heart to hearts or laugh at our inside jokes. I'm not gonna have her there for me every time I need a hardcore vent session. I tear up just thinking about it. She is undoubtidly the number one thing I will miss and I don't know how to make it better. I can't imagine going through anything anymore. When I get to my new school, I'm not gonna do track. I'm not gonna do my homework, I'm not gonna talk to anyone. I refuse, maybe my dad will realize just how drastic this whole situation is on me if thats what I have to do. I will be the most unproductive child ever, and he can ground me all he wants. He can take my phone/laptop/ipod/tv anything away and it won't effect me because I'll have no friends there anyways. I just wish that all of this was a nightmare, and that I would wake up already. I can't take this anymore. I need to figure out some way to stay here, I don't know how but I need too. I just can't leave, so please God hear my prayers every single night. I just don't want to go

My Throat

So my throat is killing me. But I cannot afford to miss a day of school ! It's the home stretch right now and I am not about to make up any finals in the summer. So you know what I'm sticking through this thing !!

Oh hey by the way this is my last blog maybe? I may occasionally still blog randomly to get some of my problems out. Blogger is a good way for me to vent and I actually enjoyed it a lot! so thanks Wad, for giving me a nice alternative!

Sophomore year was weird, very weird. It was definitely a bittersweet year. I  have gone through a bunch of tough ish but yah know what god gave me the right people to make it through it all! so I will take this moment to say goodbye to sophomore year, full of fun and drama and everything else! without you I wouldn't have progressed so much in uke or vault! and I wouldn't have found the 2 greatest people in my life. So shpankyou sophomore year.

State and Ukulele

so my best friend is going to state for pole vaulting, and I really hope she does good. I pray a little bit, but I think I'm really gonna go over board for her! I know that she can do good, and regionals were a bit of a reality check. There is a lot going on in pole vault lately but I have to keep her together. That is number 1 for me right now. She deserves to do good and she will. #BrookeLambert

Learned a few new songs lately on uke! Don't have them completely memorized, but I mean nice chunks! drops of jupitor is good when my friend sings for me, but she's only good when she wants to be. With her, she's got to be confident and in the mood because if she's not then she kind of tries too hard and it doesn't sound very good. But another song I'm in the process of learning is I won't give up by jason mraz. It's really good, and I am excited for what comes from that song

Dear Grade God...

Please help me. I need it. I'm taking a break from studying to pray to you via blogger. You see I try very hard to do good, and getting constant punishment from my parents gets tiring. So please Grade God help me drive this summer and be able to do track next year. I'm even willing to sacrafise th driving for track. Do you know how big of a deal that is for a teenage girl to say?? Grade God you were good to me in middle school and even last year, but see this year has been tough and I could use a little extra credit.

love madi

I can't believe I just did that...#desperate

Good Stuff Bad Stuff

so some of my grades are starting to come together and it's exciting!!! my only worries are banking on Intro to be an A. Wad is scaring the ish out of me because of that 0 on my final story for my spread and its messing up my grade!!!! Dear Wady, I please find it in your hear to fix that soon and be generous because an A in your class for the quarter basically decides whether I drive or not this summer. Other than intro, my last hope in English honors with Svetties. But see, this guy is afraid of technology or something because he hasn't updated RDS in a billion and a half years!!! I also NEED an A in his class. If I get that, then I will be able to drive for the summer, and maybe have hope to do track next year. Because I ended up with a B in Chem honors, which is actually and improvement for me!! but its not an A and my dad is going to be mega phissed off.

Tweakin'

So today, instead of taking a chem quiz, I went to the nurse. I was too afraid to even look at it!! I just wasn't 100% on everything so I felt like I needed another day to two to study more. I can't keep doing this, but hey at least I know I NAILED my short answer part of my test after taking it a week late:) But no really, I cannot wait to get rid of this class. Next year cannot come any faster for me to have a fresh slate and completely kill it! Pole Vault has been nice lately too. Well kind of not really, My coach thinks I have a  "Hip Pointer" which basically means I tore like a small ligament or something and just need to take it easy for like 3 weeks. Well I have 2 weeks down so I am on the verge of greatness soon! and my core is coming along nicely because I can't do our normal drills, which leads me to do 20584920730 sit ups. I gotta keep thinking glass half full here. So lets list positives and negatives!
-grades
-being hurt
-TWEAKIN
+summer
+tan
+abs
+getting my tips dyed
+State is ALMOST HERE!!